Pattern Recognition

Okay.

I'm playing the soundtrack from My Best Friend's Wedding tonight and every song title and some of the lyrics are making me think of smidges of Heroes in the weirdest ways. I may end up doing a vid to "I'll Be Okay" (lyrics below) at some point - meta and those wonderful commentaries from S1 and S2, and the way Fuller did wonderful things and left and came back and reversed wonderful things that were in the pipeline and made them somehow worse than they would've been otherwise, and the wonderful cast members - Kristen and Brea and Dana Davis - who came and went, and the wonderful characters and powers and bits of string taped to maps and FORGIVE ME written in a closet and Claude, and Zach who was clearly the first example of the story and character going in one direction that was then changed inexplicably and we'll probably never know the real reason as to why.

Even when the plots were going weird and the characters made no sense from one episode to another and when there's no reason why they kept Sendhil around this season and wouldn't let him go be BFFs with David Tennant on "Rex Is Not Your Lawyer", I've watched, although the three episodes after Nathan this winter? I waited a few weeks to watch them, and it took last week and this week to recommit me fully.

As mystery_sock said earlier today - if it's the last episode ever, then it is.

Heroes started in September of 2006 - those of you who were on my flist then may remember that it debuted in what turned out to be the worst ten weeks of my life. My sister's husband died suddenly, then a cousin of Aaron's did as well, my daughter had her first asthma attack and ended up on steroids and in the middle of all of this, fandom had become decidedly not fun, or even pleasant, and I was completely and utterly heartbroken over it.

And this show came along. I'd heard a little about it but I mostly watched because my comic-book-loving husband wanted to, and it was on before the debut of Studio 60, which we all knew back in 2006 was going to be *the* hit of the season and of fannishness, I mean it was SORKIN.

But at nine o'clock there was a gorgeous voice with a lovely accent and then we saw Peter (oh, Milo, you've aged well but you are so much older now, only four years on) on that building in New York - the city I love so much - and he was flying and then he wasn't and after tonight the perfection of that moment still makes me gasp.

So I watched, and I fell a little in love with the show that night. And a little more every week, and by the end of the season I could hardly wait for S2. And I watched that, shortened as it was, and I started vidding and it was all about Nathan and Peter for me, except when it was about Gabriel and Peter - the twins-that-weren't-but-could-have-been-except-they-are-better-as-boyfriends-even-Eli-agrees.

( If this is the last episode of Heroes... )

( If it isn't... )

I'll Be Okay (slightly tweaked)
It's time to let you go, it's time to say goodbye
No more excuses, no more tears to cry
There's been so many changes, I was so confused
All along you were the one. All the time I never knew.

But its so hard to let you go now, all that could have been
I'll always have the memories; he'll always have you
Fate has a way of changing just when you don't want it to.

I won't give up... I won't give in...
I can't re-create what just might have been,

Can't go on forever, baby; I can't go on forever, baby...
Can't go on forever, baby... yeah...; I'll be OK